Relax!!

So we went the lake with the leaders this past weekend and it was great...except...the 4 wheeler we were told we could use had some 'issues'. I never rode it, but I was told to tell the owner that the chain was loose, it sometimes didn't go in reverse and unfortunately, the key was lost.

I told her, but she responded with..."We will go later in the week to assess the damages and further contact you."

Yikes! Damages? Whoa, wait, they told me before riding that the chain looked loose and that the key kept falling out (so they put it in the house and then couldn't find it later), as far as I knew she already knew about that and the reverse thing...I was just trying to be upfront about everything over the weekend, and now 'damages'? YL doesn't have the $$ to cover damages, although I was told they would take care of it if need be. But I feel responsible. I set up the trip, I contacted her, my husband drove the thing a few times...

OH, and did I mention that my son actually fractured his arm falling off the kid-sized zip line on their property...talk about feeling like a bad mom. I didn't take him to the doctor until yesterday (during business hrs, versus the weekend), when it happened Saturday. He now has a fabulous orange cast to remind me. But I didn't tell the owner about that...

UG. My stomach literally is wound in knots. I prayed the whole way to visit my counselor today (did I mention we're doing a few sessions due to the recent events with the letter?), felt so responsible and then I pull in next to a car that had a bumper sticker on the back windshield that had two cartoon penguins facing each other, one with a giant fish over its head, like it was trying to eat the penguin. The words said, "Relax, God is in control!"

HA! Thank you. I still feel bad, but I'm just gonna keep praying and know that it really is out of my hands at this point.

I sang the song I've sung when scared in my past all the way home..."Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all of your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will lead your paths straight." I know its a verse, but I learned it as a song, so long ago I don't know when and I just sing it over and over until I find peace. His peace.