Relaxation, Revelation and lumps...

Ok, so to clear up quickly after having seen multiple Drs. since my last post...it's just a multitude of BENIGN "simple cysts". I go back to one Dr. in 3 months and another Dr. in 6 months. But PRAISE GOD! All's fine for now, you know....lumpy - sure, but great!

So here's the relaxation and revelation part of this little story I have to tell:

So Friday, even though I felt ridiculous, overwhelming (almost scary - like CAN I be anxious? Is it even possible if I TRY?? Ha.) peace, I went to 'get away' to relax, try and turn off and spend some time with God before I had to pick up the kids from school. So, I laid out by the pool - just me, Jesus, a clear blue sky and 92 degrees.

I tried to nap or 'turn off' but even at 92 (a pleasant and welcome reprieve from the consecutive days of 104), and wearing less than a yard of fabric, it still gets hot quickly. So I relocated to the pool's ladder and sunk my scorched legs in.

I prayed and was quiet and started noticing things...

The Bible refers to water in several different parables, etc., but their common thread is their correlation to life. So I thought about this giant pool of water like life. My life.

As I looked down to the bottom I saw this dark blue line in contrast with the light blue clear water. And although the water was clear in itself, my disturbance and that of the bubbling jets not only made the water splash out of it's containment within the walls of the pool, but it made the line that led to the other ladder (at the other side), look a lot less line and more like what I would imagine static to look like - if it could have a "look". Jagged, wavy, distorted, larger in some areas, jutted out in others. Hardly 'line-like', barely 'line-recognizable'.

I tried to still the water around me with flat hands on the surface, but even the slightest tremor made the line in that area beneath my hands seem like a dozen lines. I even picked up the water in my fists, watching my effort in vain and laughing at the revelation, because as hard as I tried to hold onto it, it still found a way to slip through my fingers.

But then the jets turned off. And I tried not to breathe. The water became like glass. Not a ripple.

And then I saw the sun reflect and dance as it worked through the water, making even the depths sparkle and shine.

Thank you GOD! How much is this like my life?? The line (God's purpose/plan) can look so distorted, distant, even unrecognizable with all the 'noise' - all the mess I throw in being busy, all the stuff I let bother me, this world's temptations and comparisons, etc. But when I'm completely still and quiet, leaning into God as far as possible...the line becomes crystal clear - and Christ, the SON, works in and through all the way into the depths, making it sparkle and shine for Him!

This is peace. This is trust. This is Christ, and His work in me.

I get goosebumps just thinking about it. :)