Deflated

What is going on this week??!!?

Now my sister got laid off from her job, which isn't cool. I know she's worried. But another reason why it's not cool, is that she was supposed to watch my kids the week I was going to camp with YoungLife. I've already registered to go, I've raised $515 for another kid to go, they've even planned out the cabins and assigned the leaders (including me). I had even challeged a couple of the girls that if I could find a way, we could find a way for them - together.

Now, I won't be able to go and I just felt like this was what I was supposed to be doing, this, YL, camp....It all lined up like a direct answer to prayer and they needed me, and having me there helped split the leaders and the 51 girls going evenly. And I raised all that money.

At the leader meeting Wednesday night, the director mentioned to be aware that this is the time that satan will be attacking, putting doubts in the students, making some of them back out of the trip for various reasons. Is this what's going on with me? What kind of example am I setting...or at least what will the YL students see?

After all that's gone on this week I just feel deflated.

I know He can make a way through anything, and I'm not supposed to doubt, but I sure am confused and a whole lot of bummed.