So... I'm looking for a new church. Part of me is under the thinking that organized religion is the problem. Not for everyone, not in every situation, NOT all of them, but unfortunately those I've come across. To new believers, or non-believers, or stagnant or arrogant believers, these types of tainted 'religions' are the wall between them and a rawness, realness and freedom of a DAILY relationship with Christ. Christ didn't design fellowship with him and others (lost or otherwise) to be about 'face' value, facades, about being 'comfortable', about appeasement or judgment, about money or status, or about "dressing up" (figuratively or otherwise) for the occasion. We are supposed to question!! (Psalm 10:4)., We are just supposed to come - regardless of where we are! (Matt. 11:28-30) We are not supposed to put our entire trust and faith in man, or religion, but come together as a community for Him! (Romans 12:3-5) Jesus said Come, follow ME! (Mark 1:17) As a good friend (also closely involved in this situation) recently said to me, "This is not what Jesus is about! This is not for Him! If he were to walk in this place today he would come in knocking over tables!"
Now I understand the reasons for church, and those are biblical. We are supposed to position ourselves with like-minded individuals, we are supposed to join together to encourage and worship corporately, we are supposed to bind together and to reach out. (See Hebrews 10:24-25, Colossians 3:14-16, Romans 12:5, Corinthians 12:12-17) But in my life I have yet to find this church. This church without the walls of hypocrisy, judgment, arrogance and greed. It's unfortunate and discouraging. I get that we're all human, but leadership - in placing themselves in the position of representation of God, leaders of believers - there is a standard, a call, a life above reproach, a transparency, and an ACCOUNTABILITY that one must commit too. Again, as we are all human, I understand that even these called few may on occasion stumble, may need to be supported and helped. But when these called few take to arrogance and lies beyond that of accountability or change, then they have failed. It isn't to say they will not be convicted to change, called to action or led to repent/refocus. However, I cannot in good conscience align myself with those who are of the current ill, as it may pull me to their deception, or cause my witness to fail just by association. I cannot in good conscience have my family trust in or follow this leadership and teaching.
Please do not misread this as me being self-righteous! It's actually the opposite, in that I'm afraid at this time I'm not strong enough on my own to stay within something like this and stay focused on my relationship with Christ. I don't know enough, although I am convicted to hungrily dig in again to His word, into connection and fellowship with Him. And that is by His design, so I shouldn't be afraid of change, or of uncertainty, because these things drive me closer, not farther away from Him.
So, I will continue to try my best to search, ask questions, be who I am for HIM and no one else. I'll try my best not to judge, but be the 'skin' of Jesus, showing love to others - where they are - even if they don't have an immediate heart change. I won't shun, or condemn, I will speak the TRUTH! in love.
As much as it hurts to change, I know that God allows things for a purpose. I (and the others leaving) feel lost and confused, but I know they have a heart for God, for Truth and in that they are clinging to Him and digging deeper into His word. This has not shaken our faith!
I'm prayerfully seeking another church family for my family to become part of. I'm kinda getting excited. I know that we will find a home of His choosing that will allow my family to connect and be fed, at the same time challenging us to serve. Right now, there's a particular church I'm anxious to visit. It doesn't have a permanent facility - ON PURPOSE. It's beliefs are based on biblical truths and it's open to everyone, reaches out to everyone and works on the matter of the heart before the actions of the flesh, knowing that change will come from love, understanding and obedience. What a refreshing change! What if the whole world could have this understanding! I'm looking more into it, but here's the lyrics from a worship song I stumbled across on their site that speak volumes -
What if we lived as Jesus lived?
If we could give as he gives?
What if we pray as he prayed?
This whole world would have no choice but to change
What if we walked as Jesus walked?
What if we followed what he taught?
If we really lived as though he came?
This whole world would have no choice but to change
Oh, Break Us
This is not a game
Oh, Break Us
This is not a game
What if loved as Jesus loved?
What if in Him we placed our trust?
Invest in His kingdom, not our stuff?
This whole world would have no choice but to change
Oh, Break Us
This is not a game
Oh, Break Us
This is not a game
Break Us
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