Communication

Oh, I've been so busy and tired lately...but I've still had so much on my mind to write about. I've just been too pooped to get on here and get it all typed! Someday I hope they come up with a way for me to just talk when I'm thinking about things (like in my car or in bed) and it will get typed in...k, maybe that's a bit lazy. :)

Ok, so I was doing errands the other day and was needing to call my dr. to set an appointment. I was in the car driving and called the free 411 800 number my friend gave me and waited for the prompts. I thought it would be awesome to call a free 411, because who wants to pay the outrageous fee to ask for a number, all of which takes like ten seconds, but still costs like $2. Ouch. So anyway, I called the number and followed the prompts (it's all automated), and it went something like this...

Recording: "What city and state?"
Me: McKinney, Texas
Recording: "Mckinley?"
Me: Mic-ken-ey
Recording: "McKinney?"
Me: "Yes"
Recording: "Would you like business, residential or toll free?"
Me: "Business"
Recording: "SAY, Business or Residential"
Me: "uh....(louder) Business"
Recording: "I'm sorry, I did not understand. SAY Business or Res..."
Me: (interupting) BIZ-NESS!
Recording: "By name or type?"
Me: (loudly) NAME
Recording: "What name?"
Me: "Dr. Banks"
Recording: "I'm sorry, say the na..."
Me: "DOCTOR BanKS"
Recording: "I didn't underst.."
Me: "TRACEY BANKS"
Recording: "I'm sorry, I..."
Me: "DUH-AHK-TORE BUH-AY-EN-KUH-SSS" (loudly, I think I popped a vein in my forehead)
Recording: "Would you like to try again?"
Me: "FORGET IT!"
Recording: "I'm sorry, I do not understand."
Me: ...click... (the phone jumped from my hand and forced itself to the floorboard, I don't know how that happened *wink, wink*)

Sometimes I think, especially because I'm married, that communication can be difficult. Men are truly from mars and have spaghetti for brains (view depends on the book you've read). I've met people in my life that it seemed no amount of reason communicated to them would make them any less trivial, or instigating, or quick tempered. But all of this just leads me to my relationship with Christ. I thought about how frustrated I was in the car after my experience with the free 411 'lady' and how I couldn't get to where I was going or know which way to turn because it seemed like we were speaking a different language. I know sometimes I feel that way with God. Obviously he's not audible and if I try to use my finite mind and simplistic understanding of who He is, then I think I'd never get closer to Him. But the relationship I've felt grow over the last few months has truly surprised me. Getting in His word, relying heavily on prayer, he communicates with me in a whole new way. It's something I can't even really explain. But by seeking Him and questioning and trying to learn more and more, I understand more, I "see" more, I even see prayers answered more obviously, quickly and I have found peace where before I would have worried myself into a pit, or worse. Communication is crucial and the foundation of any real, lasting and healthy relationship. I just don't know why it took me so long to understand it in a way that made sense to the only relationship that truly matters.

Verse to Ponder: Proverbs 8:14 "Counsel is mine, and sound wisdom; I am understanding, I have strength."